My prayer. . .

I'm looking outside at the rain, filled with the greatest mixture of feelings. Right now i sit, bundled up in layers of clothing, I have a roof over my head and the loud grumble coming from my belly can be cured by a couple of steps to the refrigerator. Yet..at the same exact moment, millions around the world are not so lucky. In Haiti, an earthquake devestated basic infrastructure and broke all connections to normality the citizens knew. In the poorest parts of Africa, children lay almost lifeless, too hungry to make a sound as a distressed parent looks over their child powerless and unable to provide.

How does a world that brings such beauty such as snow on christmas, magestic wildlife and human kindness bring about the  greatest pain. As I sit here I know an answer I probably will not get, but my prayer is I ma be used as a vessel that spreads happiness. I know the loud and opinionated voice I was given was a gift, I am aware that the strong belief I have in humanity is for a reason. I Pray that as I grow older I may realize my abilities, my strength that allows me to lead others to believe in themselves, My courage that gives me the strength to face situations I would rather avoid, and the wisdom to humble myself in times when I should be a follower and not a leader.

As I sit here watching the rain fall I pray that I pray that I may be a functioning individual in society and not just a person living each day.

~Bless the people in Haiti,and all those around the world unable to chose to get out their horrible situations~

On Haiti...

At this present moment, aid is still arriving in Haiti and the main focus is to dig through all the damaged infrastructure and rescue the injured, and uncover the deceased. For breaking news go to: http://www.cnn.com/

The best way to be of assistance, is to give a monetary donation since clothes, food and all other tangible will prove to costly at this moment. An Unknown author wrote: "Do not fear the winds of adversity. Remember. A kite rises against the wind, rather than with it." So let us unite and be the force that drives Haiti to rise above and against the winds of disaster!



Here are a few ways you can donate:

www.yele.org
http://www.redcross.org/
www.clintonfoundation.org
www.unicefusa.org

by calling: 1800.REDCROSS


By texting the word Haiti to 90999 and a $10 donation will be added to the donor's monthly cell phone bill. The American Red Cross has collected over $3 million dollars thus far with this method.



Additional information is available on the American Red Cross blog at http://newsroom.redcross.org.


~Bless Haiti, and all those that have lost loved ones~

Blessings and Mercy. . .

Can not imagine being in Haiti, in the midst of all the destruction and what seems to be the gateway to hell. Raw footage I have seen saddens me, the thought of the pain the disaster has caused troubles, and the fact that in terms of comforting those bereaved I'm powerless angers me. Maybe I internalize things that I should not way too often, but I know the pain I felt when really sad situations occurred. I know the anger and pain I felt when I found out that someone close to me had passed without warning, and without as much as an explanation. I also know the frustration of seeing someone needing me, and me being powerless. I text to the place where i can make a donation.But what is my tiny bit of a contribution going to do? So all I know how to do is go back to basics and offer my thoughts, and prayers to those in Haiti:
May the world, come together and as one entity be of aid to the innocent victims who have had their world turned upside down in a matter of minutes. May the citizens be granted aid, that will begin to pacify the frantic, heal the injured, assist the confused, and administer to the weary. To the mother who lays crying over the body of her deceased childor to the child who lays somewhere terrified, no longer crying and simply wondering why his mother simply lies there and does not reach to him when he cries, may they too find solace in the hands of the able.
Words can not in any way make things better but I pray that we may  be moved to become ONE world, and  not many nations, so when things like this happen the issue is not how to provide  for the situation, but rather not enough transportation to take over the supplies necessary and the people required.
Bless Haiti, and all those that have experienced such mass devastation.

Psalm 39: 12-13 "Hear my prayers Lord, Listen to my cries for help. Don't ignore my tears. Spare me so I can smile again."

raw footage: http://www.worldstarhiphop.com/videos/video.php?v=wshhd4jO2LN3U8fO98Fz

dzue's experiment on the workings of a black girls mind

I've been in class for approximately 9 and 1/2 mins and my teacher is showing us family portraits (WTF)! Since I am clearly not interested, I decided to step out of my finance major and take up sociology for a couple of minutes: I conducted a dzue experiment.

QUESTION: Are black girls natural born haters

BACKGROUND: I'm sitting in a large lecture hall somewhere in the back(but still in the class)  It's a junior and above class so by now, most of us know at least one person in class-nothing race specific about this, simply a fact!!But sometimes, people don't and this is where things get interesting with the black girl population and thus begins my experiment. We(black girls) walk in, do a quick look over to see whether a familiar face is already seated, and if not proceed on taking a seat near someone that we acknowledged as an "interest point".

METHOD: I'll pick on the girl that just walked in and use her as an example for those that have no clue what I am talking about. She is cute, well put together and clearly has that oh so black mentality(that I lo-key posess too cause the fact that she was cute is irrelevant). So, I play girl B and my familiar face is already sitting next to me, and he(for results of experiments sake) is black. So girl walks in, looks at me and (does the quick hater sweep, as I do the same) proceeds to sit in the row right in front of me. Lost at what the big deal is....let me break it down!

ANALYSIS:

•  Girl A walks in finds no familiar face, so proceeds to next best thing another black girl with the same kind of characteristics.(In this case we both wearing loud bracelets and same type of 'i'm not here to make friends' look)
• Girl B acknowledges girl by holding a look then looking at seat infront of her to say it was ok.
• Girl A sits infront of Girl B without a word
• Both girls know within 1 or 2 classes they could possibly have exchanged numbers. Just not today, cause those are just not rules of black girl engagement.

RESULTS: The reason I single out black girls is cause black guys don't care, they just look for the girl that they are most attracted to and sit in noticeable distance. White girls seem to walk in and instantly start talking to whoever lands next to them, and the white guys in class always seem to have a girlfriend so they are void from my theory. We, black girls seem to have a chip that says assess the next girl gauge how much competition she'll be and stay close. You'll either talk to her, and if you don't at least she'll know you there.

CONCLUSION: Black girls are natural haters and we don't mean to, it simply is

Tigers' moods!!!!!

Yesterday I walked into a golf store, and was walking around, looking around when i realized, something was different! The life size posters of Tiger Woods were down, and in his place was some other dude! and I may not know a lot about golf, but I know Tiger Woods was the face of Nike.... well should I say was!
 I am in NO way trying to say having 14 jump-offs was a good thing to do but HELLO... have we not forgotten that point blank and period, Tiger Woods was beyond ridiculous when it comes to golfing. That man, did things on that golf course that many people could ever hope to achieve. And as usual when he was "happily married" and living a nice and quiet life, we all applauded his achievements.
I am starting to think the problem is society. I mean, we hold these celebrities in such high regard, and put them on a "beyond human" platform, forcing these EXTREMELY human individuals to become 'super-humans'. I'm saying, Tiger's wife probably knew what kind of man he was when they got together. I do not think this extremely "perfect" man woke up and decided...YES I am going to break this oh so perfect life I have and begin cheating today! ummm NO, this dude BEN cheating! and his wife KNEW this. They always do, Kobe's wife knew, Shaq's wife knew, Federer's wife will know and believe me, Tiger's wife had to have known.
So back to my point, why is it that we let our personal feelings ruin something that does not concern us. Tiger Woods to me, was a golfer. Nothing more nothing less. If I flipped the channel to PGA golf it was not to see anything beyond this man put in work on the golf course.
So I say, yes.... the man messed up big time. But all this business about dropping endorsements and saying how bad a dude this dude was is ridiculous. I don't care if Tiger was once a woman, he is what he is, human. So how about people start reporting about things that matter, let Tiger play so we can enjoy watching his brilliance and let him figure out his demons.
On to the next one PLEASE!

I mean. . . stop tryna make me mad GET IT TOGETHER

Quite frankly, in 2010, people took president Obama's inaugaration and message of hope the completely wrong way. This was not an "all clear" for everybody to start acting a fool.


#1: It is simply NOT OK, for guys to be wearing skinny jeans. I don't get care if you created jerkin or you come from a long line of tight wearing men, it just aint cute. That being said, we don't want to see your ENTIRE ass, that is NOT OK either. So gents, get it together and find a happy median!


#2: It was never cool and is less cool now to be walking around bragging about being a player! It is not cute, it makes no sense, and why on earth can't you get your mind right. If you don't wanna be in a relationship don't if you do STAY FOCUSED!


#3: We live in a texting generation, learn some texting etiquette. The general rule is if you going to text, make sure you have something to talk about  "Hi" simply wont cut it, and how many 3 text conversations can 2 individuals have a day! GET IT TOGETHER Folks


#4: Speaking of texting, asking for pics is simply sooooo high school. I mean DANG! It's annoying and its tacky and if a person wants to send pictures they will... Stop begging!


#5: Stop waiting around for things to happen to you. Make things happen. Each moment leads forward to the next, never backwards to the last. So stop wasting time, get your head screwed on right and work for what you want.


#6: Leading from my last, if you still decide you wanna sit around and wait, sit in a corner where you are not in any one's way. People worse than those that decide to sit around and wait, are those that sit and block other people's  way. Not handling yours does not mean I don't want to handle mine.MOVE!


#7: By golly let it go. Whatever chip you have on your shoulder is not worth it. I'm still learning but letting go of some things is the greatest freedom you can give yourself.BE FREE


#8: Stay true to  you. The more honest you are with you the more honest you can be with people around you. Yes you may be viewed as bitchy. But at least you are going to be an honest one! LOL. Trying to be takes WWAAAYY more time than just being. SO BE.


#9: STOP TRIPPIN'! Life happens. Shit stanks but that don't mean the initial discomfort don't go away. But if you have a reason to trip, by all means... handle yours.

#10: Tomorrow is never promised. Live wisely. Love effortlessly. Learn profusely.

Ode to true friendship

Now that I have stopped complaining about all the sadness that surrounds my life, I feel enlightened! i am blessed with some of the greatest friends that I know without them, my life would not be what it is today.I would still be depressed, sad or confused. Through my hardest heartbreak, my friends strength gave me strength. So this blog is dedicated to those that know me better than I know myself sometimes, to those that have helped me grow into my own, and have shown me that with a little love and patience(hahaha Kass) all things are possible. The wind beneath the wings that allow me to soar and fly above...
Those closest to me, all have 3 qualities in common. First and foremost, honesty. There is nothing more refreshing than having someone in your life who is able to step back from the responses they know you want and give you the responses they know you need. A friend who knows knows when to nod and agree with your stupid suggestions such as torching your ex boyfriends car, and shaking you to come back to your senses when you claim you are sooo hungry you could eat an entire cow. (cause clearly only a good friend could know which one makes sense and which one doesnt) Second quality is 'syncness' if that is even a word. But honestly how many people in your lives do you not need to finish your every thought with. A person who when you are at your bitchiest does not hang up the phone but rather bitches back till you both hysterically laughing and you do not know why! And last but not least is trust. A true friendship requires that you love and trust someone completely that you would not second guess them with your hardest decisions, you call them without realizing and they are there even after the times you neglected them when you were all focused on your previous boyfriend.
I have many people in my life that could fall into 2 of 3 categories and only a few that possess all three. To those few that know what mood Im in by my hello, know im nervous based on what i order on the value menu, and know to give me space based on what is playing on my ipod, i want to say thank you. Thank you for being a part of my life and i hope i can be that friend that you are to me for eternity.